Saturday, March 14, 2009
the world on your table
i feel like im just melting into some slump of shit now, dont know what im doing, dont want to face anything, and yet knowing perfectly well that i need to snap out of this, like now. the very fact that im actually blogging now is a perfect indication that im just running away from everything. according to my cts study plan, im supposed to be studying econs now, but God, it's so freaking boring and even if i study i won't do well, so what's the point. at this rate i'll probably just flunk cts, just like last year's cts and promos. im so tired with my life, being so caught up with everything, i just want to quit everything and focus on what's important now. but yeah im just too weak to let go. i need to grow up, i need to be more disciplined.
leelingjing, if you're reading this, i wish you were here now, or i could at least talk to you. just seeing a msn convo from you pop out now would be enough to make me feel better.
okay. what i feel isn't important. for tonight, macroeconomics will take top priority in my life. i may be far away from my a's for a's, but at least i know im working towards them.
i fucking miss you.