LOUJEANNETAN

Monday, January 28, 2008
it will always be yours.

i promised to blog today :]

ytd, i kept getting pangsehed !! it was so annoying :( but nevermind, spent the day doing the usual stuff with the usual people :] yay. except that i went to VS to watch them play soccer. uh actually i was staring at pig's DS screen most of the time, but nevermind hahah.

i met my macho girlfriend today !! heehee went to rj to meet her, then watched 27 dresses at amk ! it was such a sweet show, hahah im totally a sucker for happy endings. anyway, i love my girlfriend, cos she makes life alot less sucky ! im really praying we'll be in the same school so that we can meet for recess & lunch everyday HAHA.

okay, i have no idea what's up with the Freaking Father but he is so fucking annoying i swear. i could list a million reasons why he pisses me off, but here's just two.
1. he told me straight in my face that im stupid and i shouldn't stop thinking that im anywhere near my brother in the intelligence arena and that i shouldn't bother appealing to rj cause i couldn't even get into rg in sec1, and i wont be able to get into rj this time. okay, i know im stupid but he doesn't need to despise me like that okay, it fucking hurt.
2. he doesn't even give me the right to decide what time i wish to sleep and wake up and basically do anything in my life. and so, he thinks switching off the modem at midnight will force me to sleep. ya like try getting insomnia and see how it feels. im 16, not 6, cant he stop trying to control everything i say or do. even my mum thinks it's shit.

everyone, and i mean EVERYONE in the house is sick, thanks to romey's tekong bug. wow it's so exciting living in a bacteria & germ filled house, with the melodious coughing going on 24/7, hip hip hooray.

my left eyelid has been twitching like mad, is that a bad sign ?

#LOU

Saturday, January 26, 2008
love drowns the tender reed

life is unpredictable, truely.

i went through multiple hours in a state of neuroticism which started a little too early i guess. kept vigil the whole of thursday night talking to my ultimate & doing a jigsaw puzzle for qiqi :] it's been a long time since i've left the house so early, i just realised how much i miss it. family & line dance on the track followed by badminton & frisbee with hole & charm ! i miss the freshness of the morning air hahah.

so anyway, after an eternity, got our results. i was rather disappointed even though i know i dont really have a right to be. hoho, my h.chinese was like omg, but who cares ! i dont have to touch it ever again :] heeheehee. anyhow, im really thankful for what i got, considering the fact jing and i started studying for o's like a few weeks before. praise God ! (for my nineee.)

oh, i fell asleep at 8 on the sofa ?!?! wth. i didn't get to talk to jing & chloe !! sadddd :(

HAPPY (belated) SUPER SWEET SEVENTEEN BECKS :] i love you !!!

someone ask me why im in this somber state of desolation ?

#LOU

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

"Life ain't always beautiful. Sometimes it's just plain hard. Life can knock you down, it can break your heart. But the struggles make you stronger and the changes make you wise, and happiness has its own way of taking its sweet time. No, life ain't always beautiful. But I know you'll be fine. Hey, life ain't always beautiful, but it's a beautiful ride. " Love you many many louloulou :] Stay strong & dont lose hope. We're all in this together (sings the song)

if you're the person who typed this, i love you tooooooo, more than anything in the world ! heeheehee :D

[edit] 23rd Jan, 12:04AM i just got home. my brother fell sick in field camp and got sent home. he made us rush to changi at 9pm and when we got there he told us he was taking the 11pm ferry -.- so anyway, went to changi village to eat ! haha i need to stop eating so much, i totally miss those times in school when i was too busy to eat anything man. sigh life sucks haha. my mum's tapping on my insomnia to take care of my brother, smart person. i was supposed to crash cj tmr with charm but i have to go with him to the doctor's. oh well, can get my referral too :] oh and i am so not looking forward to thursday ): [/edit]

#LOU

Saturday, January 19, 2008
please don't ask me what i like about you

this is L, 6th May 2007.

this is the other L, 13th December 2007.

can you spot the similarity ?! hahah it's not hard to tell why we're such good friends :)

#LOU

Friday, January 18, 2008

my day has just been made great cos im talking to both lingjing & chloe online. omg staying up is totally worth it !! omg im so amused now hahah i think i dont make sense YAY okay byebye :)

[edit] okay, it's like 2am now !! and chloe went off cos she has prep & jing's doing, uh chem. hahah i think my life is so meaningless these days. like thinking of how i should spend my time is a chore, i used to treasure so much the days when i could just stay home and sleep, but now it's a different story, totally opposite. rah. i would pretty much expect myself to be emo & suicidal blogging at 2am, but surprisingly, im rather happy. besides the fact that i have no friends and no life hahahah. ami auditions are highly entertaining, i wish they'd screen it more often ! gets me into the singing mood too. sigh i miss choir. oh and i would really appreciate it if someone could get me sleeping pills, cos i think my brain's overactive and it really annoyingly keeps me awake till like 3plus everyday ! someone owes me a lullaby though (: heehee and lullabys are supposed to be sung !!! [/edit]

#LOU

Tuesday, January 15, 2008
in a restless world,

i think im suffering from some sort of weird syndrome that keeps making me hear my phone vibrating. maybe it's like withdrawal symptoms after not seeing & talking to jingjing for so long ): hahah anyway life has been rather boring.

charm yings & i crashed rj today, went to find diana :] havent seen my macho in like forever ! saw quite alot of people. hahah but we looked very out of place, not smart enough la. anw decided not to go for lecture so went to j8 with charm, in our futile search for oreo cheesecake ): shit i think i should start getting up early again. im super lazy nowadays ): boooo.

# LOU i miss my ultimate ): says:
sigh i dont think i'll ever get used to life with you so far away !
says:
hahah you shouldnt get use to it ! and i wont too
says:
so we will keep missing each other
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OH NO ):
says:
we're going to be like lousy shooters for life ):
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but i like it

hahaha omg jing's damn cute ! i really miss her like crazy. i wasn't too happy just now, but thank God she's online ! anyway im not going to be affected by stupid petty things anymore cause i am nice & mature ! & maybe guilty ?

i feel like im losing alot of my friends, maybe not applying for pae was really a mistake. my mum keeps harping on the whole nafa thing and she makes me feel really stupid for not checking about the grade requirements earlier ): but whatever, im just hoping i do well for o's, pretty pleaseeeeeee ?

[edit] okay i think i should just shut up and not talk anymore, maybe then i'll stop screwing up my life (: [/edit]

#LOU

Saturday, January 12, 2008
V is Very Very extraordinary

going back to st nicks on thursday was great. i really miss everything about it ! oh i cut my hair in the morning ! now it's super thin and icky. i feel bald hahah. anyway finally got to eat orange bowl :) when everything was done, qiqi jing & i had small dragon buns & yami yoghurt :) yay hahah.

jingjing left ytd :( qiqi & i went to her place early in the morning to wake her up ! then slacked till around 2, cos yings had to go for floorball & rock climbing try outs (HAHA). jing & i went to toa payoh for last minute shopping. bought munchie donuts !! :) we each ate 3 in like 5 minutes, wah super pig.

mm i left jing's around 7 and cabbed to the airport to meet the rest. aw & i were rushing to finish jing's present and we were like sitting on the floor, super unglam hahah. camwhored alot outside swensons while her family ate. leaving was so hard. i think everyone was crying :( sigh i'll miss my ultimate like crazy la, i hate goodbyes. and it's like 7years :( eeeeeee by that time we'll be like 23 ?! rah.

the rest of the pics are up at my shutterflyyy.

i got woken up today cos i was supposed to go and pick my korkor up, but i got screamed at and when i was bathing, they just left without me. wth la, im so fucking pissed.

#LOU

Wednesday, January 09, 2008
dont look too hard

i want to lose 1.5kg ! so that i'll be 40000000kg and i'll break a bed every night :) okay no. but anyway my plan to eat alot at dinner so that i'll be full and wont eat anymore failed ! like so miserably ): booooo. not happy.

chloe's not replying my msgs & emails. uh okay i just sent the email like 3minutes ago hahaha. aiya, she better reply soon, if not i'll buy a plane ticket & fly there !

miss cambodia is so annoying, i swear. she keeps going around telling people that she has a very bad cold and makes it sound like she's dying, when she's like not even sneezing as much as i do ! eee bitch.

going back to st nicks tmr ! yay. to help out with choir auditions !!! jing & i are going to pretend to be sec1s and see if the teachers recognise us hahahah. okay i think we're too bored for our own good.

#LOU

Sunday, January 06, 2008
cause you've brought me so much sunshine

jing's farewell party today ! left session early to go get supplies with cinch & once again, people kept coming up to me to ask for balloons, when i paid for them, pffft. after moving everything to my other house, i ran down to gardens, supposedly "from session" hahah to meet jing ! & then forced myself to eat cartel to stall time. anyway jing was so slowwww. she didn't suspect anything even when she saw the millions of papers hanging from the railings ! hahah lousy la.

the rest of the pics are here !

the coming week seems so bleak. omg i rhyme give me a dime :] hahah anyway. i dont want jing to leave :((((((( i want my ultimate around you know. life alr feels weird without my dearest chloe chien ! okay im going to flood changi airport with my tears so that the planes wont be able to take off !!! YAY hahah.

i think im nuts, byebye. oh, yings is so bitchy ! hahaha.

#LOU

Saturday, January 05, 2008
now it's time we bade farewell

i hate goodbyes. thursday morning, my korkor left for melbourne, yet again.

ytd was spent with charm, then i rushed to chloe's to run up her third avenue mountain for the last time (for the next few months at least). went to the airport, where everyone was highly emotional, with the exceptions of soo the banana & her anticlimax moments. there was loads of tears & hugs & all, and now chloe's far away in UK, which leaves me with no one to call & talk for like millions of hours and to bully ! :(

met yings after that cos she was at the airport too & we trained & bused home tog. i felt like i hadn't seen her in forever, i miss that girl so much :( but it was nice :] just talking and all.

i cant believe my ultimate is leaving this friday. i swear i will cry like there's no tmr & like faint from grief ! ahhhhhhh i hate all these goodbyes, i wish this were one year ago.

i feel like im screwing up my life, i really need to start thinking more.

#LOU

Wednesday, January 02, 2008
i miss you so,

happy new year people :]

spent new years eve at jing's ! my mummy was in a good mood so i got to stayover legally hahah. jumped into the pool at midnight, and played games and swam until like 3plus ?! im surprised i didn't freeze or drown to death in her 3m deep pool ! hahah but as always, time spent with TRC passes so quickly, with the games & dotting fingers and toes and indoor badminton hahah. life alr feels weird not seeing them to eat everyday, even if it used to be just for 45minutes :( but anyway, didn't sleep the entire night ! called in pizza for dinner & macs for uh breakfast at 4 man. cool or what hahahah.

anyhow, im feeling very weird with no school to go to and nothing to do ! like, everyone's in school having fun at orientation and im seriously dying of boredom. i miss st nicks, like crazy. i miss wearing the uniform and standing on the track and orange bowl and even the tests :( i cant live without school !!! (omg i cant believe i just said that) now i really regret not applying for pae, boo.

gerald korkor's flying tmr, chloe's flying on friday & jing's flying on the 11th, EEE I DONT WANT.

i dont like feeling this way ): the way you make me feel

#LOU