LOUJEANNETAN

Saturday, June 23, 2007
hey, i know we've changed

im not that girl - wicked

hands touch, eyes meet
sudden silence, sudden heat
hearts leapt in a giddy whirl
he could be that boy
but im not that girl

dont dream too far
dont lose sight of who you are
dont remember that rush of joy
he could be that boy
but im not that girl

every so often we long to steal
to the land of what might have been
but that doesn't soften the ache we feel
when reality sets back in

blithe smile, lithe limb
she who's winsome, she wins him
gold hair with a gentle curl
that's the girl he chose
and heaven knows
im not that girl

dont wish, dont start
wishing only wounds the heart
i wasn't born for the rose and pearl
there's a girl i know
he loves her so
im not that girl

sang this song in voice today, it's super nice ! (: my teacher and i were laughing at how depressing the lyrics were hahah, quite amusing. anyway these two days have been really bad. a whole lot of shit happened throughout the entire day ytd, i was really really moody. today i had to endure endless screaming & crying and "what have i done to deserve a daughter like you ?!" blahblahblah. sometimes i really wish i was deaf ~~or dead.~~

anyway my aero polo went oos ): so since i was pissed & upset & everything bad, i went to shop even more ! got ae :] one more polo & a hoodie. yay. played alot of net big2 hahah thanks to lingjing. school's starting soon, i hate school ~~(& probably my dad)~~

oh, i'll probably be going to jc after all.

#LOU

Monday, June 18, 2007

ask me why i am so bored.

#LOU

Sunday, June 17, 2007
it's time to say it, goodbye, goodbye.

okay im tired, went for charm & becks' confirmation today. but first, farewell !

farewell was fine, i liked the egg in the flour game ! so funny. i think im born to be a pig, i like messy games oops hahah. yup then the presentations & all were okay, didn't feel like farewell at all though ): sucksss. i cant believe my journey in choir is over, rah. okay nvm i'll post pics !

BIG FOUR !

THREE ROCKS, three years & more

self proclaimed fav junior hahahah.

secfours ! yay with some missing ):

3R at jing's after (:

yay okay. i love being a bimbo & i think two braids are the cutest ! :)

yup anyway went for charm's & becks' confirmation today with the cliquey & tingtings. the two of them were pretty girls ! yay. then went to pizza hut for dinner, then bused home. sleeeeeepy.

in church

after dinner (:

sigh last week of the hols, i need to start studying. what happened to self discipline loulou ! seriously, im not ready for the 5-test-a-week minimum for the whole of term three. is that a turn off or what. oh & im not ready to decide what i want to do with my life by this friday. someone save me pleaseeeeeee.

oh & i have the greatest parents on earth, who left for cambodia on friday without leaving me any allowance, or tuition fees, making me pay my teacher with my own money & drying up my stupid bank account. i hope i die by the time they return on friday.

okay i shall go and sleep like soon, cos im itching like mad from the stupid rashes which i got from god-knows-where, and cos it's freezing cold, cos im confused, oh & probably cause seattle's planning to ban microwave popcorn.

#LOU

Thursday, June 14, 2007
& im standing here waiting for your reply
which i somehow know will never come

im supposed to be at leelingjing's house being efficient & doing farewell presents now, but she's sleeping & im really lazy ! i shall leave soon. mm okay farewell's tmr, im like excited & yet scared. i just realised how fast time passes, it seems such a short while ago since we were the ones running around & getting all stressed up over farewell & syf & getting our GwH. rah my life will definitely seem really empty without choir. no more playing during performances, no more weird pictures in our ugly choir uniforms & everything ): okay i shall stop being so emo & save the nostalgia for tmr :)

the parents are leaving for cambodia tmrrrrrr, means im free for a week ! YAY.

shopping starvation is so hard, everytime i see a spree & im dying to order i cant ): but it's okay, practise self discipline & control. go louuuuuuuuu :)

i have been the least productive idiot this week, monday was spent stoning in town, tuesday was spent at jing's, ytd was spent watching tv & eating, today will be at jing's & tmr will be in school. hooray. oh but im looking forward to staying over at jing's tmr & charm&becks' confirmation on sunday whooooo ! oh did i mention i met nat on tuesday omg like finally ! yay. but we didn't get to talk much sigh.

i find the way my brother & his gf sweet talk in front of me disgusting.

it's like we're so distant. we were never like this, and yet you're different now. it's like we see each other so often yet we both know there's some barrier in between. we cant talk properly anymore & i really dont like this. must our friendship change just because of one or two people ? guess it wasn't as strong as i remembered then.

#LOU

Friday, June 08, 2007
an unforgettable journey or tears, anxiety, satisfaction of joy

step down was ytd, cant help but feel a little gush of relief, yet at the same time im so reluctant to let all of this go & face reality that my 3 and a half years in sn choir have offcially ended. not going down to chopin & facing the friends is going to need a little adapting to, but even when i do, i know i'll still miss it so much.

okay on a lighter note, congrats to the new comm ! :] hooray & esp to my lower charges (hahah im biased, cant help it). okay i shall post pictures now.

Student Conductors 06/07 & 07/08

GwH Pres, VicePres & SCs 06/07

3R is ultimate love.

yup okay so went to club to study with 3R after that, cos yings & i didn't feel like tuition & jing's parents aren't in town. ate dinner & the guy in the atrium was super nice ! my goodness, he was damn funny & he gave me my dinner for free : O after that went to poolside to study & attempted to buy a cup of toppings hahah, dont ask we're just weird. yeah so after we left, i came home & met the new korean girl who's 14 but looks like she's 20 or something sigh. but she's super cute & funny, i could get used to living with her ! im friendly yay.

things in life dont always go your way, but be strong cos at the end of the day, you'll learn things from it.

to my dearest cinch : we all know you're going through a really hard time now & i know exactly how much it hurts, but please continue to be strong okay, we all love you no matter what. we'll get through this together, we can & we will. have faith in yourself.

oh before i go, i would like to say that today's amaths test sucked, and i studied hard okay, im just to stupid to do it sigh. & that im not looking forward to my minimum 5test per week term 3. oh & most importantly that i stop buying stuff online ! rah. i think it's time to stop after my abercrombie tee, 2 aeropostale polos, 2 abercrombie skirts, little miss tee & the necklaces im getting tmr. actually just shopping in general, i forgot about my jeans, dress, shorts & 5 tops :I retail therapy is addictive :(

~~oh & i hope to make up my mind about you asap pleaseeeeee.~~

#LOU

Sunday, June 03, 2007
your heart's probably stronger than you think it is

im so exhausted, i feel like an exhaust pipe HAHAHAHAH okay im talking rubbish. yings & i studied today, i was very productive yay. or at least more productive than usual (: hahah hip hip hooray. im really really tired, i have no idea why. oh actually i'll credit it to my bouts of insomnia, thank you very much.

everything's just different now, so complicated & all. okay, i guess God's testing me here, im sure i'll come out of this a stronger girl :] i am optimistic yay.

step down's in 4 days, i still have yet to figure if im looking forward to it or not, everything's really stressful sigh. kind of looking forward to farewell though (:

& jing, no matter what happens, i love you. give yourself some time, you can do it. im sure you'll be stronger & take comfort in knowing that he'll be watching over you all the way.

#LOU