LOUJEANNETAN

Tuesday, February 27, 2007
pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie

somehow, i think the eye infection is really getting to my brain.

i really really really really really really really cant wait for this week to be over and the weekend to come. hurry up pleaseeeeeee ):

#LOU

Sunday, February 18, 2007
if i was happy, pigs could fly

hello hello ! happy (chinese) new year world ! cc & i are sharing this year, so happy cc & lou year too ! hahah, if you are that retarded, it's the pig year, so cc & i are pigs -__-

anyway celebrations in school were ew. charm & i didn't even get to sit on the specs stand, instead i was on a dirty canvas sheet on the field. plus, it was really boring, mass was like nothing cos we couldn't hear a thing, the performances were, weird haha. the only things i was interested in was like dance, but yeah. so anyway had lessons after that, goodness. played alot, hahah. that's the class clique raising eyebrows, super funny hahah. at night went for dinner with my mum's side and this weird guy kept taking pictures of me, goodness. played bingo heehee (:

yesterday was fine, woke up, ate lunch with the family, then had reunion dinner at my uncle's at night, filling but okay (:

wore my kimono top & skirt today (: went for mass in the morning today before going to my other uncle's place, which was hot and stuffy & i was being really cranky HAHA. stayed there for a long while before coming home & now im waiting for ceecee & yings to come over ! how exciting, Exclusive Emoclub Evening on cheena new year ! :D plus yings and i are wearing the exact same things ! cant wait, plus gambling tonight ! yay ! okay got to go do my pesa speech cos i promised prabs i'll email it to her by tmr :\ oh well, HAPPY NEW YEAR ! i'll update again later (:

[edit] okay so cc & yings left alr ! im happy (: it's been a long time since we've had an Ecube heehee. plus i miss talking to ceecee (: yay yay im happy ! okay im really lazy to type, i shall put pictures instead (:

yings & i (:

E for Emo C for Club !

we love bakkwa ! (how do you spell that ?)

& chocolates !

& of course, love letters ! heehee.

okay i think that should be enough for now hahah i love those two (: anyway the rest of the pictures are here ! good night & happy cc & lou year !

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#LOU

Saturday, February 10, 2007
faith is my salvation

okay so got chinese olevel results ytd, must say i am rather disappointed. it's hard not to be when you are like one of the few in class who didn't get a 1, but it's okay, i'll bounce back ! i shall strive to be like ceecee ( i cant believe im saying this ), haha but that stupid girl is so smart pls, she can go be a nerd. but anyway after i while i realised that i should be thankful actually, cos there are people out there who are more upset & dissapointed, and to the dears : cheer up okay ! it's not the end of the world, you know you are smart girls, we'll work hard tog & get our straight a's !

workshop this morning was fine i guess, few upseting details, but im happy that we did fine. more relieved actually. and i think im falling sick again, i've been sneezing non stop for the past hour or so ? so annoying. i better get well by tmr.

three rocks outing tmr ! we are going shopping at far east ! i love shopping yay (: havent had three rocks for a long time, i really miss the days we used to have weekly friday outings ): maybe we could compromise to once a month or something hahah.

speaking of that, i really miss Exclusive Emoclub Evenings too ): it used to be a very very often affair & now even when i meet ceecee, it'll just be both of us without our most active member HAHA. yeah it's just not complete ! sooooooon pleaseeeeeee ):

#LOU

Tuesday, February 06, 2007
& you're only almost here

okay so i realised that my last post was super emo hahah. but i've really been quite ))))): recently. the many many contributing factors hahah. okay, i shall be very systematic & organised today (:

1. lou is officially down with gastric flu yet again
yup, the horrible torture, gastric spasms etcetc. i have two days mc (ytd & today) which probably explains why im blogging now (1254pm), and why i went against the original plan of getting full attendance for school & choir this term, not blogging until the march hols & not using friendster anymore. tsk, see what boredom can drive one to do.

2. i think im a traumatised person
ridiculous as it may sound, i think i am, seriously. i've been having the weirdest of dreams, and waking up at 4plus to lie in bed and stare at the ceiling for two hours everyday wihtout fail. my dreams are seriously weird. for example last night i dreamt that i had to witness the "execution of brethren", the details are just sick so, i shant say it here in case i get like sued or something. i dno what's wrong, maybe it's the stress & exhaustion hahah.

3. i think i have the best friends in the world
the past week hasn't really been the greatest or you know, but it's been great having them around to listen & all, and yeah the greatest revenge is to vow never to be like the person who hurt you (this is from jing's blog), i will try (:

okay i think im being very weird today, maybe the charcoal pills have gone to my head, but anyway i should shut up & go away. hahah byebye !

[edit]oh happy belated sweet sixteen sooooooooo (: i love you sexy ![/edit]

#LOU

Sunday, February 04, 2007
why do you play with my head & my mind ?

there is always a time when one's life is fraught with obstacles, setbacks & failures. & it is at these times when one's self esteem starts to dissolve and fade away, bringing along the faith that one used to possess. it's as if everything done is wrong, and the effort you are putting in just goes to waste. no matter how much you try, there will still be people who put you down and you still fail. and then you wonder, why did you even fall in the first place ? was it because you turned a deaf ear to good advice ? or did you just break a promise you once made to yourself ? and your heart & body was just ripping off piece by piece without you realising. but girl, it is at these painful times that you realise who your true friends are, quietly at the side pieceing you back together, piece by piece, with no complains at all. and then you realise, that your life isn't that hopeless and pointless, your salvation lies in these great friends who will walk by your side and support you forever <3

#LOU

Saturday, February 03, 2007

I lurBbXesZ JING :)

hello this is ME trying on jing's very retro dress ! yay. anyw, had voice this afternoon it was oooooookay lah i sound like a frog. teehee. then went to visit my VERY SICK FRIEND JING who's head was on fire. and i ate up all her Nachos (ONE FULL PACK) and all her chocolates. IM SUCH A PIG. anyw, i think jing really rocks. okay i shall show you guys my BIMBOTIC diary now. ewwww.

love, jing

[edit] okay this is lou now hahah. that is such a stupid picture, so candid pls omg. but jing's dress is nice (: and im still at lingjing's house now 0714pm (oooh our favourite numbers !) and i did not eat the pack of nachos and all the chocolates. i only ate like nacho crumbs and one cat's tongue hahah. anyway i've been very upset recently cos of various things, and thank god for cinch, becks, yings, sally, nat & of course lingjing the pig hahah but she's really sick now and im braving the dangers of bacteria to come and see her hahah. im not looking forward to tmr ): but that doesn't mean that it wont come.

im holding on,
but letting go of you.

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#LOU