LOUJEANNETAN

Sunday, August 27, 2006

i really dont feel like blogging ): cos im tired. i shall elaborate some other time yay. anyway for a more detailed explanation of what happened today, go to yings' or cc's blogs ! yay i love them !

happy birthday to you
you are born in the zoo
there are monkeys and lions
and mickey mouse too

zhu ni sheng ri kuai le
zhu ni sheng ri kuai le
zhu ni mi qi lao shu
zhu ni sheng ri kuai le

oh mickey you're so fine
you're so fine you blow my mind
hey mickey ! hey hey
hey mickey ! hey hey
oh mickey you're so fine
you're so fine you blow my mind
hey mickey ! hey hey
hey mickey ! hey hey

who's the most active member
of the club that starts with "E"
M I C K E Y M O U S E
two days ago on the twenty fifth
yingsy wingsy turned fifteen
M I C K E Y M O U S E
M I C K E Y M O U S E
da da da da da dum

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY YINGS !
I LOVE EMO CLUB <3

#LOU

Saturday, August 26, 2006
the scarred part of a tree is the strongest

heehee school on wednesday thursday and friday were so slack ! like we had free periods everyday ! and even lessons were so slack please. but i missed alot of them who went for camp ! like my dearest yingsy wingsy, jingle, skimpy, lele, emain, mapes, chienjie, huihui and everyone else heehee.

i love school because :
- i have my phone there heehee
- the greatest friends on earth
- koko krunch craze with the seat friends
- becoming monkeys HAHAH
- lousy badminton with the crazy seat partner
- bird catching ? or running rather hahah
- playing during lessons in class
- food parties like everyday
- 50c potato recesses with becks !
- balloon frenzy with the recess people
- complaining to ceecee every morning
- fridays with three rocks / emo club

you say you're going through so much
you blame everything on others
you talk about how they're wrong
you speak of how bad they are
you proclaim how good you are
you think you're being taken for granted

you're having problems with everyone
doesn't this already hint something ?
that the problem doesn't lie with everyone around you
but within you.

maybe it's because of what i went through last year, it showed me what life is really like. i dont dare to say that i've been through something much worse than you, but im sure many people never go through it in their lives. but yet there are some who do. however something tells me that you're not going through anything worse than i did, and this makes me belittle you for complaining of the smallest things. it makes you appear as childish and immature. you'll never know, and hopefully you wont have to go through it becuase that feeling of betrayal, emptiness, it makes one feel that life's not worth living for. but yet i held on, and at the end of it, something good came out. i realised my faults, my mistakes, i changed for the better. i bade farewell to that once selfish and self centred me, and became a much more open and well, happy me. i learnt to look on the bright side of things, because there were always people who were by me, and they were my source of hope and motivation to carry on with what seemed like a meaningless life. now looking back, i dont really know how i pulled through last year, but im glad that last year took place and i was given that chance to change and improve. it made me realise who were my true friends and who were just my superficial friends. but after that whole experience i guess it allowed me to treasure more the life im having now, the real friends whom i have, and just knowing that when im down and need someone, they'll always be there for me.

i love you all <3

keep smiling, keep shining
knowing you can always count on me
for sure
that's what friends are for
for good times, and bad times
i'll be on your side forever more
that's what friends are for

#LOU

Saturday, August 19, 2006
i keep pushing on for you

i am annoyed. this is so annoying.

1.my stupid handphone bill for last month came up to a freaking $163.82 and now i have to surrender my handphone anytime im home. this is so ______ im going to make sure i come home as late as possible everyday for the next three weeks.

2. my freaking msn is not working and i am being forced to use stupid web messenger which sucks ! and it takes like FOREVER to load and everything. so annoying ! and the fact that i dont have my stupid handphone makes it so much worse ! AHHH ):

3. i was being very very stupid and dumb just now by drinking coffee falvoured milk knowing very well of my stupid mildly lactose intolerant condition that i cant drink milk ! and now i am subjected to diarrhoea and acute stomach pains and i feel so stupid. RAH i should have jsut stuck with vitagen ! boohoo.

4. it's calista's birthday today and i havent gotten her anything or wished her cos i rushed home as soon as i got the sms that my bill was so freaking high last night and i dont have my phone respectively so tmr i am so going to get scolded and beaten and everything bad by that stupid girl hahah. okay fine lah i love her, but she's still going to kill me ):

but i was quite happy yesterday till like maybe 930 at night ? there was emo club outing cos cc wanted to go watch lake house, BUT after arranging everything, that stupid pig said that she didn't want to ! so we just went to mos and we sat at the exact same table as last time heehee. then we made a whole lot of noise and took SOOOOOO long to eat cos we only touched our burgers like an hour after they arrived. oh and i havent lost weight cos i still cant squeeze into the gap in between the tables HAHAH. oh and i used two straws to pick the lettuce and onions out of yings' and my burgers but cc didn't allow me to pick her cabbage ): heehee. i have good chopsticks skills ! then we talked and crapped and little children who walked by kept tapping the glass ! so freaky please. oh and lingj and amanda aw walked past and i started banging the glass ! hahaha that was funny. everyone got a shock and started staring :D then they came in and finished my drink ! but we bought another in the end heehee.

um then after talking and talking we wanted dessert ! we were planning swensons but there was a queue so we went to coffee bean instead. then we talked and talked and talked for some time before i recieved that fateful sms ): oh i saw krystal ! hahah. so after that fateful sms, i plucked up courage and called my mum and she came to pick me. she was being super nice and all though.

when i reached home my dad was playing mahjong so i bathed and headed to sleep before my dad could wake up and do anything to me.

so today i tried my best to wake up as late as possible then in the end i woke up at 1115 and stoned till 1145 while my mum tried to persuade me to go talk to my dad. when i finally did, the whole thing started, cos as usual my dad was super stubborn and unfeeling and kept comparing me and my bills to others and all that freaking shit. but my mum was being really nice and all, she called me to her room and we talked for about 2hours ? i told her about all the problems i was facing and as usual, she suggested solutions and shared her personal experiences and stuff. i mean i dno how some people live wihout talking to their parents. but yeah my mum's really open & stuff so it's nice to talk.

anyway i love the emo club, they make me happy (: cos we're all very retarded people heehee. i really wonder how life would be without the best & favourite senior next year. i love ceecee & yingsy wingsy so much <3

#LOU

Thursday, August 17, 2006
hold me close, let your love surround me

she said that we cant make it.
but we can, we must have faith.
we can do it.
we will do it.
it's going to be a tiring eight months ahead of me, but im glad i have friends who will always be there <3

omg, i havent eaten the boxed up hello panda for so long that i've forgotten how to tear the box ):

#LOU

Tuesday, August 15, 2006
the sweetest dream will never do

hahah this song is playing now ! dont wanna miss a thing by aerosmith. thank you ceecee for the very emo playlist. i cant believe you gave yings a happy mix and me a sad one ! trying to make me emo is it. lousy hahah. now it's im with you playing. heehee all the emo songs.

anyway this week has been quite aimless, i suddenly feel so weird with no farewell to be stressed about. there was emo club present exchange yesterday though, super fun (: i love cc's present ! it's pink and pretty hahah. and we are so _______, we got each other the EXACT same scrapbook, the cd and the kinder surprise ?! hahah plus alot of other things too ! heehee i love you the dearest senior ever !

okay you know what i love the emo club so much ! both of them rock. hahah stand by me playing now ! yes i'll stnad by the both of you, no matter what happens. they never fail to make me high and happy. there are no words to express my love for them hahahhaha i sound so desperate heehee.

CEECEE the best senior ever !
milk choc rock blaster, stick elephant, person who has germs jumping on her, daisy avocado low ching chong ! i love you so much. thanks for the pretty pink box and the pretty pink scrapbook and the pretty pink cd cover (which was mine) and the pretty pink stuff in the box ! heehee i hope you like your green present ! and your video ! i told you i couldn't find any suitable song can ): nevermind tell me a song, i'll reburn it and make you cry ! anyway thank you for being the greatest senior ever heehee, you rock lah. and im glad the encouragement notes are helping ! heehee i'll definitely miss going to your class every morning and the phone calls ! heehee i love you ! <3

#LOU

Saturday, August 12, 2006
you were the ones, the ones to guide me through

now that i think of it, farewell last night was great overall, despite the little things that happened.
it was great seeing how the secfours enjoyed themselves
it was great seeing how bonded comm 06/07 is
it was great seeing how enthusiastic the choir was
it was great to have the best friends with me when i needed them
it was great to see how all our hard work and effort paid off
it was just great.

i love the grey badges, and i really dont want them to leave.

i love the comm, we will work hard tog for GWH next year and do our seniors proud !
~~and prove to that bitch that we are not inefficient and muddleheaded~~

i love my dearest friends : yings, lingjing, serene, cinch, gillian, kaile, xueting & everyone else ! i really do.

most of all, i love the dearest & greatest senior in the world. thanks for always being there for me and helping me throughout the past two years (minus the first half of 2004 heehee). i love you so much <3>

farewell pictures HERE !

#LOU

Thursday, August 03, 2006
a sharp turn in this seemingly regular life

okay, so i havent been blogging, my sincere apologies (: hahah i keep on wanting to change my layout, cos im damn sian of the current one, and also cos yingsy wingsy wants her picture on it, but im currently having problems with photoshop and im really lazy to work on them so i guess i'll have to wait. hahah.

school has been quite stressful recently, i mean, with all the tests (OMG CAN DIE) and also all the choir stuff that is piling high above me. some people, they are so irresponsible, they throw all the work to other people and in the end claim all the credit. WAH cant stand it. but i guess sometimes it's really me who's at fault. i know my problem, i dont trust other people with work. and i end up taking everything upon myself. i mean it sucks lah, but i should learn how to change. choir is really weird without the sec fours around. and okay fine, ceecee, you play a big part in that weirdness in choir. happy ? (: and i think the new comm has yet to actually settle down. and well, in my new role as sc of snchoir, im facing quite alot of challenges and sometimes setbacks. and there's this inner voice in me that's telling me that i should just give up and not care, but i cant and i wont ! cos it's my responsibility and my passion. and of course, i will not ever let my friends, who are always, and i mean always, there for me and have utmost faith in me, down. i will persevere. and i believe, one day, i will see the fruits of the entire comm's labour, and at that time, everything will be worth it.

three charity's a really great class though, believe me. i love almost everything about this class. i love my group of friends : sally, mapes, soooo, chienjie & huihui ! i love my seating partner : charry (: i love the unity, no matter what stupid forms it comes in. im really thankful for being in this class (:

oh and i love fridays the most, cos it's always yings jing and lou day ! which is like three rocks day :D i love the two of them, they make me high & happy (:

i really dont understand how some people can be so twofaced and plastic. i mean you dont act all nice and comfortable in front of everyone and behind their backs, you start bitching all hell about them. i mean it's okay if they know you dont like them and you're only do it for the sake of not making a scene, but i mean you dont do that to your friends, people who trusted and believed you. to be honest, i really pity these people you know, they are never true to themselves. it's like their whole life is just a game of deceiving themselves and the people around them. in the end, it is them who ends up with no true friends, no one to share their joy and troubles with. it's so plastic, so unfeeling. i think i would just die if i was like that, but oh well, people choose to lead such a meaningless life.

oh no, i feel bitchy now. and well, im not afraid to say it (: RAHHHHH im becoming so bitchy. that's so bad. i shall go reflect now HAHAHAH.

#LOU