LOUJEANNETAN

Tuesday, April 18, 2006
with my heart out in my hand

HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY JINGWEN ! :D

hello my good friend, the group I element :) im not friendless okay ! sally's my good friend hahah. but i still love you more yes. i hope you enjoyed your birthday ! sorry this is abit late :\ we must go out tog with si'en and yixin sometime real soon okay. hahah, then you can choose the present you want hahah. anyway you've been a great good friend ! hahah that sounds so retarded. okay nevermind. see you in school LOVEEEEEEE ! oh and happy belated ! :)

there was belt check today. it sucked like shit la. like half of the whole school got caught ? they were super strict. and, i, tog with everyone else, was so surprised that i passed ! hahah i cheated my way through theresa teo's check. then the exco check was like, worse than like the security check at the airport when you return from some epidemic struck country la ! we quickly ran off after we passed, in case some picky teacher caught us :\ hahah. i must say the school is really smart though. i will surely get caught sometime soon la. OH WELL. hahah.

mum's being very annoying recently. like she keeps on nagging on how i suck in my studies and how i should come up with whatever revision schedule and all that shit. i mean it's fine if you say it a few times. she keeps on harping on it ! like everyday, when she fetches me from school or returns from work, she'll start on it again. i mean, it's getting pretty annoying ! dad's not much better. he and his stupid old fashioned thinking of how children ( ahem im not even that young ) should sleep early and all that shit. like i was rushing out performance task just two days ago, and he actually forced me to switch off my computer la. so you know something, if i fail, it's going to be partly his fault, i'll fight back when he starts scolding me. same goes for the tests. anyway, talking about tests, three tests this week, chinese emaths and history. im going to die for emaths la. i have never paid attention in any maths lesson since mrs fung came back. i mean she's nice and all, but no matter how hard i try to concentrate, i really cant. and i seriously dont want to go for maths tuition again. hur i shall think of something la huh. we got scolded quite badly during maths today. hahah but AIYA, it's fine hahah.

im sick yet again. the sore throat, phelgm and flu are just super insistent on staying with me. it's like im sick like for two weeks of every month ? and i got scolded alot for that la. plus, im like kind of grounded till i fully recover this time. pffffft. but i must say this time's is very bad, i cant even sleep properly now.

i put on weight again, im so sad ): hahah time to start gymming and getting rid of the fats ! hahah. but quite difficult to exercise when im like constantly sick lah. but im so sad. i must start gymming again soon ! yes, go lou ! (:

hmm obs from the 8th to the 12th of march. dno if im actually looking forward to it.

this is a rather tribulating time for me isn't it. i really dont know what to do. im totally lost. no directions or signs to follow. my friends tell me just dont think about it, let things take place on its own, but it's rather difficult for me isn't it. it's haunting me day and night. i really cant bring myself to face her anymore. i feel so ashamed of myself.

#LOU

Sunday, April 09, 2006
am i worth it ?

i guess this is going to be quite a self reflective post. but i really think i have so many areas where i should improve in. as in mentally and spritually. i've been a very bad girl this past years i guess. swearing and cursing, and i didn't even see any wrong in it ! i was a hypocrite to some, and i thought that it was only right cos they had done worse to me before. i was what i call, the ultimate selfish ass.

and really, just like that christopher guy or whoever else said in cathechism today, im going to cat class and mass for all the wrong reasons. i go to meet my friends, chat bitch and gossip, and not to learn more about christ. and i can tell you honestly now, what's going through my mind is that it's the teachers fault that the lessons are not enticing and interesting enough. see, im blaming others again. like why was it when my darling skimps asked me, why do catholics confess their sins to the priest and not directly to god, i didn't know the answer ? was it because i didn't know how to phrase it, or just because i didn't know at all ? im too ashamed to even think of the answer.

why cant i be like skimps ? she takes the trouble to wake up early on certain days just to talk with god. i really look up to her for having the discipline and courage. im setting a goal for myself. 6months from now, i have to be a better person. i shall stop myself from saying too many swear words, i shall try my best to stop being such a hypocrite, i shall learn to have the discipline to do what is expected of me.

#LOU

Friday, April 07, 2006
an impromptu makeover

i cut my hair, as many many know. it looks weird now. or at least it feels weird. i need time to get used to it la, pffft. i think it's quite nice now la huh, i trust skimps' judgement ! hahah. anyway what's done cant be undone so too bad ! just have to wait for it to grow again hahah.

JINGWEN my good friend ! the group VII element ! stop bullying me okay, i dont want to be friendless like sally. i'll transform myself into a group 0 element okay ! yay hahah, i miss sitting in front of you and passing stupid notes back. anyway because im your very very good friend, i shall not steal si'en from you anymore, even though i know she'll be so sad ! hahah, i stick to yixin :) hahah i cant wait to go out with your laogong and my lover :D LOVE !

i think it's going to rain tonight, all the insects are coming out, eeew.

#LOU

Wednesday, April 05, 2006
you work at a smile

everyone's so depressed now, including me. i bet it's the weather. it's universal moodswings ! i love skimpy. i love cinch. i love jingle and her pretty shorts. i love everyone. yay ?

oh, im sitting next to chloe, behind maple and enid. very near to yixin my lover and quite close to sutsia. chewps is right in front though, four rows in front of me. tsk.

im sad ):

oh, i forgot to mention : i hate the father. it's coming to a point when i cant stand him anymore. this just isn't working out.

#LOU

Monday, April 03, 2006
they tell me your passion's gone away

i love skimps darling, she blogged for me :) yay.
i drew her a sticker today.
it said wimp's darling ! hahah.
i want a sticker back from skimpy !

okay, that's so weird. hahah, i think i've been like really mood swingy recently. sorry & thanks to all who were there for me :) i changed my layout. it shows all the people i really love alot, my darlings : skimps, cinch & jingle. yay :)

thursday's geog test was quite killer i must say, i din know some stuff, but at least i really studied for it ! yay, thanks to my darling skimps who made sure i actually studied ! we had family dance practice during recess for the jb exchange thing, and ~~the bitch~~ really pissed me off la. after all, you dont go around pushing all the blame to other people, especially when you carry such a high post ! we respect people who admit their mistakes, not those who push the blame to others. ASS !

friday went for grace's birthday party. met skimps at toapayoh mrt at 6. we were on time, unlike miss lee lingjing ! but she was super poor thing, all drenched and cold. luckily i brought my jacket for her. supposed to train to city hall to get to tanah merah but ! we took the wrong train ! and we din even know can. stopped at bishan to get jingle her PRETTY SHORTS which im buying from her ! cos they're so nice :D finally reached tanah merah, then cabbed in. the food was great. jingle, skimps and i ate so much ! and we kept on spilling the root beer ! omg, so embarrassing ! then my parents came and sent noonling to some mrt, diana and serene to their homes and jingle and i to my house, where her dad came to fetch her ! hahah by that time it was like past midnight alr.

was supposed to go support hollaback semis on saturday, but since i reached home so late on friday, my parents wanted me to stay at home ! at least i got to sleep in :) yay ! slept alot and watched alot of tv, then went for easter vigil practice. got a little pissed there but nevermind ! came back home and ate. then called SKIMPY SEOW while watching pope john paul II and because of serene, i wasn't paying attention to the movie ! pffft.

woke up so early on sunday to go for 9am mass ! i was a little late though. we were supposed to report at 1030 to go to villa francis home in like mandai or something. and they sent us to macritchie la ! all the yucky and disgusting insects and monkeys ! went to the home and did the usual stuff ? there was this woman, her voice was really ruffled and stuff. and i think she spoke cantonese. then nikki and i couldn't understand and communicate with her and she was like scolding us ! so freaky la :\ then we moved to help these guys. there was one who was like telling us of how his mum din like him and he was abandoned and everything, quite sad la huh. oh. something happened on the way which made me really pissed. im serious, i was quite insulted la. it was like totally redundant can. but i ranted to jingle, skimps, cinch, chewps and yixin alr so now im happy :D

it was raining really heavily with thunder and lightning today after chinese remedial ( dont ask ). i was in the canteen with skimps and cinch trying to cover my ears with my fingers when suddenly the electricity tripped and the fire alarm came on lah ! i was super scared can. and the two darlings weren't helping much by chanting and everything. hahah. my mummy sent us home after that.

i think this is a long and lorsor post. but i feel like ranting so yeah. PFFFT.

cause you had a bad day
you're taking one down
you sing a sad song just to turn it around
you say you don't know
you tell me don't lie
you work at a smile and you go for a ride
you had a bad day
the camera don't lie
you're coming back down and you really don't mind
you had a bad day
you had a bad day

#LOU

Saturday, April 01, 2006
boo ! :D

i am skimps .
lou's dearest wimps .
im here to blog for her ! :D
i love my wimps cos she makes me happy all the time (x
she's on the phone with me ,
but she doesnt want to come online
cos she's watching pope john paul II (:
okay i think im a realli nice blogger for her .
i love my wimps ! :D

#LOU