LOUJEANNETAN

Wednesday, March 29, 2006
you've been on my mind

okay, im supposed to be studying for geog, but i need to do a few things. so yeah. firstly,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CINCH !

love you darling, you're fifteen now, so you should stop being careless and gullible alr yes :D thank you for everything you have done. even though your birthday's ending soon, i really hope you enjoyed it. saturday's nydc & swensons, today's um ice cream "cake" ? ( a pity we threw the balance away, i feel like eating now hahah ), my present, the "card" & all. i know you're not really happy with some things at home and all, so i hope this cheered you up. and a reminder that you have eight months to plan mine yes. hahah love !

secondly, i want to express how much i hate JINGLE's gbk. i typed a whole long messsage and cleared the entire thing ! tsk, so anyway i'll type whatever i remember here yes : hahah, you say i never blog so i shall blog now ( as in now hahah ), but anyway you can help me blog since you're so freeeeeeeeee :D yes, i love you alot. and i know you love me more hahah. anyway it's heats darling, not hits. i hit you then you know ah. seeing you tmr again, miss you alr, hahah. love !

thirdly, i would like to say this to SKIMPY SEOW ! : hello darling, i hope you're not too upset about your results. you'll do well, dont worry ! if someone like me can improve in chinese, you can too ! i promise :D and you're a great leader so dont have so little confidence in yourself yes. LOVE !

forthly, miss khor is changing our seats and i am not happy about it, i love sitting with my lover yixin ( even though she abandoned me today ) ! oh well, pray i dont end up with someone i dont like.

there, four things done. so little, you could count them within a hand or foot. time to study geog now, seriously, i think learning how the rice and vegetables i eat everyday are planted is SO INTERESTING ! HOW I LOVE AGRICULTURE ! :\

#LOU

Friday, March 24, 2006
far from my reach

im in a very bad mood now, partly cos of how i acted just now i guess, but im seriously pissed about you not even hearing me out. but i guess it was no reason for me to lose my temper, maybe im just not mature enough to handle these kind of things, maybe im just too spoilt to be able to take anyone's opinions. the day when i will really grow up and learn how to control my temper, to learn to tolerate and give in, i await that very day.

#LOU

Saturday, March 18, 2006
it's just the beginning

just came back from cip, the food from the heart thing ? was quite alright la. cinch and i sneaked off to tanjong pagar with jingle, charm & awyong cos orchad was like way too overpopulated with people dressed in school uniforms at like 10 on a saturday morning carrying a yellow plastic ( ? ) bag harassing innocent people along the streets to donate. okay fine, so im being rather mean, but god bless me, like practically everyone was so unfriendly, tsk. tanjong pagar wasn't much better though, cinch and i managed to sneak to red dot for like 10 maybe 15 minutes for tas until we got scared that ~~someone~~ would catch us so we left.

this week has been really busy, like much busier than most school weeks. monday had rehearsal, tuesday had show, wednesday had workshop, thursday had eye check ( oh, i got my new specs ! YAY ! :D ), yesterday had choir, today had cip, tmr have proj discussion and monday have piano and i will pia all my hw then ! hahah, there. one week just FLEW by like that. or rather it's still in the midst of flying hahah.

i guess this week hasn't been that good. cinch & i have been consistently depressed. but we know we can do it ! CINCH ; cheer up darling :) no matter what ANYONE ~~esp that person~~ says, we know that we are better than some people and we are not that lousy as some people make us out to be. we know that we can do it, and our friends know that we can, and that's all that matters. dont think so much about it yes, i love you ! :)

i havent seen / talked to skimpy for a few days alr, i miss her alot ): she's supposed to call later, she'd better not pang sae me okay. hahah. i love skimps :D

oh i forgot to mention, talking to TOWTOW on the phone is amusing hahah, cos miss TEO HUIHSIEN TABITHA was vacuuming the floor at like 12am. poor neighbours of hers hahah.

tas has been a really great experience, i've got to know some really great people, and some not so great ones, and now i've come to a point when it's time for me to decide if i want to continue this journey. i know very well i want to, but what i do not know is whether i can cope will all the pressure coming from my results, snchoir, tas and so many others. there are so many things i want and yet cant do. but my heart just refuses to let anyone of them go. im sorry i cant take criticism that well, but the bluntness just hurts me like it would any normal person. i feel as though im going to crumble under all the pressure around me anytime. i just dont know what to do.

jesus take the wheel
take it from my hands
cause i cant do this all on my own
im letting go
so give me one more chance
save me from this road im on
jesus take the wheel

#LOU

Tuesday, March 14, 2006
now everything's gone

fiesta's over :) im rather relieved i must say. there was quite a crowd at our booth, and we survived. but im not sure whether we actually managed to cover costs, i think we did better than expected :) some annoying people din turn up for their shifts, and miss khor was really pissed cos some had been there the whole day. so thanks to liyin, tiakhui, yanni and all those who turned up for their shifts :) there was one person who really pissed me off though, but shant go into details. the performance was horrible :( we kept on going out of tune ! so dissapointing. but it's over alr, yay ? spent most of the day running around with cinch, jingle, skimps, charm and uh.. cant rmb, but the later half was spent at the stall ? yeah. after that bused home with cinch & skimps. hahah skimps was being such a glut ! she ate like cup noodles, then after that she ate another mcspicy ( double ? ) ! tsktsk, the bus was rather empty, then skimps & i got off and she waited with me ! we uh, watched the sky. hahah, there were no "shooting stars" though, so dissapointing ! hahah.

went out with cinch & skimps on sunday, to town so that cinch could get her performance pants. had fun :) although skimps was like unusually quiet :( hahah cheer up skimpy ! neos were so, exciting ? no, amusing more like it. tsktsk. was late for mass though :/

had rehearsal for today's performance yesterday. tas is performing for the strait times school pocket money fund cheque presentation. quite grand hahah. and ! im running late hahah, so byebye ! :)

#LOU

Monday, March 13, 2006

LOUTY :D i tell you ah, im super piss with you guestbook cause it refuse, refuse and i repeat, REFUSE to let me sign it. RAWRR. so i've decided to invade your blog and help you with blogging :) haha, okay YOU'RE NOT COMING FOR CHOIR TMR. i'm not gonna friend you already :( so you have to come for the next practice kay ? cause i know you simply miss your beloved Jingle too much. don't worry, i miss you too lou ! :) haha yes and im still angry with your guestbook. roars at it. hee, oh ya, relink me kay ? http://devilsprada.blogspot.com :D

Loves <3, Jing :)

#LOU

Thursday, March 09, 2006

i feel like a little girl
trying to conquer the whole wide world
everybody wants a piece of me
and I just don't know where to turn

i've got work piled up to my head
all I want to do is jump into bed
and wash away my troubles with lemonade
play hide and seek with the boy next door
take a trip to Singapore and
imagine how I'll make the world a better place

all I need is a good disguise
one where nobody can recognise
that I'm feeling so small
all I need is a secret weapon
i've gotta have faith
zapping monsters into outer space
i'm gonna be a Superhero

if I were a little girl
trying to clean up the whole wide world
i'd kick the bad boys back to school
teach them fighting's just not cool

i'd give every kid a teddy bear
turn starving people into millionaires
break glass ceilings with dynamite
sprinkle a little sugar and spice
turn the bullies that terrorize
into pink poodles that bark, but don't bite

all I need is a good disguise
one where nobody can recognise
that I'm feeling so small
all I need is a secret weapon
i've gotta have faith
zapping monsters into outer space
i'm gonna be a superhero

i feel like a little girl
trying to conquer the whole wide world

thanks to everyone that has help me throughout the sad times :) i love you.

#LOU

Saturday, March 04, 2006

rahhhh, my gbk is screwed !
im so pissed off.

anyway the nail supplies problem is SOLVED !
yay, thanks so much to sutsia & jiayun !

I LOVE SKIMPY ! <3
yay dont be sad anymore :) you rock ! i still find it amusing talking to you, it cheers me up ? hahah i dno !

hahahah jingle ! i love her too :) she's so funny ! but she always stands me up ! hahah, if you're reading this, my friend a.k.a tabs says you're really cute hahah.

i think im in a really weird mood now, i dont know how to express it. thanks so much to CEECEE for listening to me rant and encouraging me to persevere ! yay, i love you :) i promise i will do something to make choir fun and interesting again ! it's my goal for now.

#LOU