LOU 06111991 CHOIR CATHOLIC SNAPSHOTS

Saturday, December 24, 2005
as we watch the planes take off

tomorrow is christmas ! but, i wont be here in singapore to celebrate it with all my friends. instead at midnight today, im going to be on the plane to seoul, korea, to spend my christmas in a stranger country, where i'll probably spend most of my time making sure my nose and ears dont freeze and drop off. minus twenty degrees, mind you ! it's not by my choice that im going, not even my parents' choice ! mr korea's mum booked the tics even though we turned down her invitation, like thanks so much, i really appreciate your sincerity, but please dont coming spoiling the last moments of my holiday ! im missing christmas (!!!), im missing the last choir prac before the workshop, im missing TASYV's party (!!!) and i'll miss my last chance of seeing the TASYV people till next year ): but nothing much i can complain about, since we are not paying for anything, except our shopping.

anyway i got to go now, bye CINCH, TABS, YINGS, LINGJ, SHY, ANGIEJIEJIE, CHINTOW, JUNKAI, CHURCHPEOPLE, etcetc.

i love you all, enjoy christmas !

#LOU

Sunday, December 18, 2005
you are all that i need

took this off kah's blog :
"things happen when you least expect them to.
when you have them, you dont treasure them.
but when all is lost, you realise how precious they were to you."

i've heard this many times, but i never really bothered. i took things for granted. and now im regretting that i didn't not spend more time with sniky when i still could. and now that i really really want to, i dont have the chance anymore, never ever.

IN LOVING MEMORY OF SNIKY, MY BABY (1993-2005)


i cant stand the way tasyv is split into two groups, it's like building a wall between the two sides, good and lousy. and they are cancelling all the group two shows. like i know we are lousy and stuff but in the first place, they should have split it evenly. and im not the only one who feels this way. i guess we're just not good enough to match up to their standards, but call me egoistic, i still believe i am somewhat better than some of the rest. it's like group two is a nonexistant group now.

#LOU

Sunday, December 11, 2005
your timing is always perfect

LOU IS PISSED.
i got home yesterday with a bloody sore throat so i went to sleep. when i woke up, i realised i had a freaking high fever, like 38.5 or something ? so i forced dinner down my throat and then took the sore throat medicine tog with PANADOL ( hahah, my favourite medication, it works wonders ) ! and i watched missworld ( it showed live on starworld ) and after a while i was fine ! so today, i wanted to go and perform, but dear mum like grounded me. RAHH. so irritated now, i shall call cinch !

#LOU

Friday, December 09, 2005
pushed down to the lowest beneath the lowest

how much worse can today actually get ?

i conducted for today's workshop with nygh and tkgs, and i really sucked. i know alot of people hate me, and that i cant conduct for nuts, and they hate the way i teach, but cant they just try to understand the stress and pressure i am going through ? for one, i have never conducted the choir in front of so many people before, open house was like 100 times less people. and i have never combined this song by myself. melody did it on tuesday and miss lim on thursday. does anyone even have the idea of how difficult it is to conduct when the fucking time signature keeps on changing ? i dont even have that wee bit of experience in conducting, must they actually expect so much from me ? just a simple word like "jiayou" or even just shutting the hell up or something would really do much better than their words of put down. im sorry you think im always having a black face and banging the keys, but it's really natural and habitual respectively. i really feel like just giving up and stepping down, then your wish would be fufilled. try putting yourselves in my shoes and see things from my point of view. i'll try doing likewise for myself and hopefully, things will be more pleasant in future.

and thanks so much to cinch and tabs for trying to cheer me up ( which they did in the end ) , i love you too so much !

performance was fine i guess, but im losing my voice again. and so many people are still sick. this is super annoying. then there just had to be this group of bastards who were pointing to me while i was on stage and according to tab's lip reading skills, they were saying that i "surely cannot make it." like ask them to take a look at themselves in the mirror, look at the way she danced and embarrassed herself, who's more "cannot make it" huh ! assholes.

i guess today is just not my day, but after all your sensitive comments, i am all the more determined to prove to you that i am capable of doing it and someday, i will be able to look back and laugh at you people's ignorance.

#LOU

Wednesday, December 07, 2005
hit in the head by a meteorite

LOU IS SCREWED.
like what the hell is wrong with me?
there is no way i can stop my brain from controlling me.
why did i have to meet him in the first place ?

where is cinch & tabs & yings when you need them! ):

#LOU

Monday, December 05, 2005
you are the treasure that i seek

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
my lovely heehaw :D I LOVE YOU. you're finally fourteen YAY! hahahah.

I LOVE this week, i guess im beginning to feel more comfortable with the TASYV people? im starting to realise what nice people they are. yes performances were uh, okay? i guess. but now im sick, and so is everyone else : CINCH THE DARLING, SHY, qianying, junkai (?), chintow (?) omg my poor shy's having fever, like 39.3? omg so poor thing!

GET WELL SOON SHY :D

im in LOVE with cinch, im in LOVE with romey, im in LOVE with singing, im in LOVE with sn choir (apart from the fact im in sop2), im in LOVE with TASYV, im in LOVE with SOMEONE.

YINGS THE DEAR is far far away, she's prob like on the plane to seoul now, to transit to america. and when she comes back, i'll be leaving ): OH NO. im going to miss yings, alot! ):

i dno when LINGJ THE LOUSY :D is leaving. her flight got postponed cos of a snow storm in uk? but anyway i'll miss her alot too! my COCKATRICH BIANBO PEEGIE! ):

anyway, im going to get ready before TABS kills me! hahah did i mention I LVOE TABS ALOT TOO? hahah yes i do :D

#LOU