Thursday, March 31, 2005
pissed off with the least expected
im in the comp lab now. and IM PISSED
fuck off people. fuck off.
#LOU
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
HELLO LOU :D
HELLO LOU !
hahah, guess who this is. alright, cheer up okay ? dont be depressed whatsoever. mm, i dont knw what happened to you again today. but it seemed better than thursday lah. so yes, cheer up and dont be too stressed okay ? sorry i cant go watch son of the mask with you ! i have NEWSPAPER remedial ): how uh, fun ? oh well. sorry okay ! we go watch smth else like next week or smth okay ?
I LOVE YOU
#LOU
Sunday, March 27, 2005
its just so difficult to be nice
im here to make a public apology to everyone that i offended or made worried on thursday
especially the dearest CEECEE the darlingest YINGS and the cutest ONGIE the nicest SUMIN and also the skimpyest SERENE :D okay tog with everyone else. THANK YOU PEOPLE AND IM SORRY.
thursday was practically the worse day of my life. miss lim did audits level by level and sectwos were horrible. i dont want to describe how. but yehh. really really bad. im sorry if im offending anyone but i dont give a damn. i know and admit im lousy and the rest should too. miss lim told us to get out even before we finished one page of fanfare. and even after that happened, there were some people who were still happily chatting and laughing away. call me selfish bitchy or whatever. but if you dont give a damn, please dont take the chance to sing in syf away from those who want to. what is your freaking prob mans. your bloody attitude is even worse than that whatever pblcy okay. I HATE EACH AND EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU TO THE CORE. AND I MEAN WHAT I SAY. i dare to say out of the 25 sectwos in choir, only about 12 bother about getting into syf. and i hope that the rest wont even get in. but i have a feeling miss lim will either kick the whole level out or keep the whole level in. and i;d rather she kick all the sec twos out and let the choir get a gold than keep and get a silver. so what if i cried i would gladly shed some more tears for the choir to get that gold. and i really need to thank ceecee for comforting me
I LOVE CEECEE LIKE HELL. miss lim's going to test us again on tuesday. i really dont want to know the outcome. at all. whatever.
yesterday had easter vigil, sang one response and solo. i thought it was really bad but alot of people told me it was good? so contradicting uh whatever.
YINGS thanks loads for eveything okay. consolling on thursday smsing on friday adn yesterday. i'd die for you mans. i love you so so much. son of the mask on wednesday yeah :D i miss you loads. tomorrow hurry come! :D
CEECEE haha you and your stupid poly jokes. thanks for thursday. i dno what i'd do without you lohh. ceecee my salvation HAHHAHAH okay whatever. i love you alot alot alot!!!!!!!!!!!
bye.
#LOU
Sunday, March 20, 2005
ugh whatever
im being pissed with the sky. someone come and save me.
#LOU
i'll declare my love for everyone to see :D
i feel like giving everyone my blog password. or rather everyone i trust then they can all come and blog for me. haha then my blog wouldn't be so dead dont you agree :D yay. haha. im singing response later. hope i faint up there or something. haha
i love tan ying qi!! :D
#LOU
Saturday, March 19, 2005
you are what you think you are
the only reason im posting now is because uh my beloved TAN YING QI asked me to. haha im so happy cos i achieved something good. yay. revenge for my fellow alto ones! haha yehh! okay i really want to go and sleep now. so i shall not post anything else. haha
I LOVE TAN YING QI THE GREAT! good night :D
#LOU
Saturday, March 12, 2005
fear is not in your vocabulary, its in your eyes
I'm like so tired larh. still have bloody hell choir. no matter how much we train. we'll only qualify for Silver or sumthing. no point starting pracs So damm early and torture the innocent members. we have to admit it larh. due to the damm bloody hella bias system that the stupid choir practices. choir sessions have become a wadge between damm popular, bimbotic and bitchy people and the plain people. so its like... unless you are like sticking yourself to the cliques. if not you'll be like hanging out with your fellow dont-wish-to-be-part-of-the-clique people. hmm... so yeah. I remember my sec1 days when all the levels are so united and friendly and amiable. but those good old days are GONE!!! I hafta snap myself outta that stupid illusion of mine that keeps driving me to think that choir is still not that bad a place to be in. I'M DUMB! I've completely given up hope. I suddenly lost this special sense of belonging and this strong bond I once share with singing, esp with the choir. why didn't I just ponn my choir audition when I was sec1 so I wouldnt miss the String achestra, chinese ochestra, and band's audition. damm I was silly then. I hate myself. now I'm making up for my stupidity by 'faithfully' attending choir practice sessions every week and get torture and abuse(mental). I'll no longer love st nicsk choir. my passion died. my love for the music died. my respect for the members(except chaneline, huis, audrey, siew ying, sharon, yingxian, yongzhen, qingqing) died so long ago. why did I even join it at the first place? I must have suffered a brain damage then! yeah. i so hate choir now.all that was written by a bitch. actually she's not even fit to be called bitch its way too mild for her dont you think? slut's more like it. i hope you see it you slut. HA! see she says "no matter how much we train. we'll only qualify for Silver or sumthing. no point starting pracs So damm early and torture the innocent members." haha you know why "we'll only qualify for silver?" ?? its because of people like her who have hell of a freaking bad attitude. they think "whats the point of going so early and practising so hard when we can only get a silver? " well its because of they're thinking that we get that silver? then wont they be happy? okay so what if she calls herself pamela bernadette ling chai yue?? like it might be a nice name. but even if it is, (which it isn't) it so doesn't suit her! i think saduka suits her more. like whatever i dont care if she sees this. on the other hand i'd be glad if she sees be bitching about her and starts hating me EVEN MORE! haha. but im still going to rant alot about that slut. what's the point of crying after we get scolded or CCP! says she's dissapointed in us. and then after go home and write all these in your damn blog?! like so not hypocritical only. uh huh. and you know what else she siad? she said "why am i so talented?" i never imagined anyone could be that bhb! like hello even i am not as bad as you. and for your info. i dont take voice but at least i sing in tune. and you know what? i think you suck. at least at singing. im not jealous okay. why should i be jealous of you? im just pissed that i have to be nice to you and i even bother to give you advice when you're out of tune. like ugh. makes me feel hypocritical. but im doing my job. SLUT.
anyway performance at fairfield today was.. bad. soft and not projected. i was forcing until my voice cracked. ugh. whatever. miss lim said she's going to audition us by herself. quite scared. yet happy. you know im damn nervous to get audited by her. like YEHH! but happy cos even if i dont get in i know that all those who did are better than me. cos miss lim knows good from bad better than anyone else. and maybe then sn
CHOIR will get that gold easily. but the other thing i hope is that hose people who have attitudes like that slut's will be kicked out. yes. so what if they can sing better than others. as what miss lim said its the mentality. if you can sing well but have a silver or even bronze mentality then no point! so too bad. i hope you get kicked out. then i can just sit there with my GOLD WITH HONOURS mentality and laugh at your stupidity and naiveness. HA!
yay i love
cc! yings! jing! cinch! ongie! and some others i guess. yay ceecee and i kept staring at each other during warm ups today. cos we were out of tune. as in the choir. haha so funny. okok going for ong's bbq later. hahah yings too. yay byebye :D
#LOU
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
i walk alone
havent been blogging much huh. just felt like blogging today. dont know why. syf's on 06042005. its like less than a month!
and we were still so :l and alto one's still airy and no support and worst of all soft. and to tell the truth im really really really worried about it. like both sumin and i try to help them but like some in particular has such a bad attitude towards it. and to think so many people wnat this job of playing bossy. bahh whatever i'll just do whatever i can and at the end of the day. i know i've done what i could and at least i can be proud of it. not like some idiots. oh heck.audits were a flop. at least mine was. it was like really bad. and they still said it was satisfactory?! like if that was satisfactory i cant imaginr what bad was lohh. hehs. no offence but i feel that we're really lousy. oh wells we'll just give it our best shot and work hard not like those idiots. bahh. choir was okay.. was feeling quite lousy at first but all the rubbishing with cc cheered me up alot! cc's my salvation ahhahahahhahahahah! no lah. she always cheers me up :D even when no one else can... hmmmmm. haha yay
I LOVE CEECEE! :Dyap's a total idiot. she's got like negative percent humour. i miss miss chay. like yap is horrible and my script for my speech is out of point and she didn't even tell me! she just gave it back. and she LOST evelyn's jiawei's ONGIE'S and boonyi's script and she still had the cheek to ask them to REWRITE it for her. when she lost it. like hello! if this continues im going to complain in the forum yupp. and chewpin was like sitting with her legs on the chair and she was like "can you sit properly?" then choops did then she was like "where's your name tag!" and choops was like i didn't bring then she was like "didn't bring! how would you like it if miss low li eng found out?! would you like me to tell her?" like fine its wrong that choops didn't bring her name tag but everyone forgets things at one time or another! like no one's perfect you asdbthuijklthnmcrfvhiup even you make mistakes at times like LOSING PEOPLE'S SCRIPTS! like what's her problem? i cant wait for her to go mans. whatever.the korean guy's totally pissing me off.
he ate 10 magnums in 3days! you know how expensive that is? one magnum is 2.30 go and count for yourself thats like 7.60 on ice creams per day! and he ate up the whole bottle of my 3d like snack and whats more! he dropped everything on the floor and according to my nice sweet maid, there were crumbs all over the floor. that explains the lizards in my room. ugh. and he's like on the comp 24/7! and i was doing my homework in there just now and he pretended i was like not there and just went in to play his game -.-" and i couldn't do my work properly okay! i was like 99.9% tempted to turn around and slap him like as many times as i wanted. and when my korkor's using his comp. he comes out and uses mine! ugh. and ever since he downloaded his whatever game into MY COMPUTER, i've been having trojans and viruses and weird things popping up everywhere. its freaking irritating okay. not to mention how much info im standing to lose if my comp is going to get shot by one of his korean viruses and will need reformatting. then i am really going to slaughter him and throw each part of his body to different planets. both my korkor and i are freaking pissed with him. like whatever! i shall listen to mum and "be more understanding" but there's still a limit to my patience.
korkor's going to italy during june break for educational tour. and he gets to go to vienna! like bahh. but its okay cos i know he's nice and wil definitely buy stuff back for me :D i love my korkor! yupp MY KORKOR ROCKS. and nothing and make me change my mind.
met cam at the bus stop just now to pass her her chrissie and veeday pres. hahah so late lohh. quite glad i finally met her. yay missed her so damn much. yay.
tagboard's down so im going to post messages here. its too bad if you're lazy to scroll down and read them.
ONGIE! i bet you're the one who signed my gbk as "lou" haha anyway cant wait for the twelfth! yay barbeque :) yay and friday we'll buy matching shorts! yeah! haha I LOVE MY ONGIE :D
SKIMPY!! seow seow ZHIXIN! haha im not pro la! skimpy's pro and she can do it :D GOLD WITH HONOURS. yay! and im going down to support yings for reaudits tomorrow so i'll support you at the same time yehh! yay. i love my skimpy! haha. jiayou! (:
cinch! yay thanks for everything dear. except those shrieks in my poor left ear. i think its hard of hearing now haha. dance today was :l weird haha. and remember to bring the curtains to school okay! if not clemmie will start nagging again. arhh. we should have a strike cos he never fails to let us off late! no sense of punctuality haha. anyway thanks for always putting up with my ranting! yay i love you :D
YINGSYINGS! hahah i know you love my layout cos its PEEENK! yay peenk rocks. haha and dont worry about audits okay! you can do it must xiang xin zi ji! hahha believe in yourself. and anyway now you're doing with skimpy so you two can support each other! yay. haha. your message will be the longest okay! haha. yay! jiayou for audits yesss! you'll be fine dont worry! i'll be there to support you as your encourager and pitcher! hahah it sounds like the pitcher you use to pour juices out from haha. PITCHER. hahaha so funny! oh my god. anyway all my tryouts are over and im glad i didn't get in! haha i didn't even bother to jump properly. yehh! am i pro or am i pro? haha yay. okay okay im seeing you tomorrow! i shall talk to you then! yay. my eyes hurt like mad bahh. ILOVEYOU!! MY LOVER JIE KIWEEMU threerockie! yay we rock :D
#LOU
Sunday, March 06, 2005
please book me first class to my fancy house
changed my layout! its pink :D all different shades of pink yay (: anyway having music concert later on. playing two duets with sel! haha wish me good luck. and i came home early from school on friday. and i missed geog test haha. but i'd rather go for geog test than have cramps. bahh. how i hate this. rahh. okay im going to do my math work now. before that useless piece of fat nags me to death tomorrow. bye :D
#LOU
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
bitch point dont enter
i so truely hate myself. for what i am doing to you im truely sorry but i just cannot control myself. im sorry okay. i should start slapping myself now.
and cc? im sorry if you're angry okay? really!oh what the heck is wrong with me. everything is all my fault but i cant stop myself from causing somemore hurt. just tell me to get lost.
#LOU