Tuesday, March 30, 2004
ouch.pains
hellos pple.today is go hungry dae for louies.hahas.woke up extraextra early.dunno whies.cos dere was choir todaes?hahas.anywaes.reach school den was like alot of time buden yingqi(oh yahs.she is now my jie) was like dere so we wokked round da place.so farnie.and den the sec 2s were like staring at us like why tis 2 pple wok bie so many times?ahhahas.den in the end i dint eat lorhs.so was havin gastric all thru mornin until i cuddent run during pe.good oso.run until wanna die.so was wokkin around w the tupid pain in my stomach until recess.tot i cud like go for recording den after dat go to canteen and sneak food out.but i wenta da MEP rrom and no one was dere!den so much later found out dat it was postponed til tml.wahs.so mad lorh.make me cannot eats.ahs heck.so the toopid pain stayed w me till lunch.was kinda broke.ac had money but cant use lorhs.was so tempting!!!den decided to eat ice cream[again]but the one i like sold out.so i dun care i nva eat.den wah lao ahs.durin choir pain lyk siao. (heys.i hid it well dint i??)so regret lorhs.den sing oso wah no mood to sing.wanna sit cannot sit.den nicenice pple let us have break and i lay flat on the floor and it was betta lahs.but still got den just wanted to go to canteen to eat den cheryl lee ask us go back.so damnit regrets lorh.acc. weixin wanted to treat me but i so paisehs.hahas.not ver nice lorhs.hahas.oh yesh did i mention we have to record jesus luvs the lil children oso.hahas.so cute!i myself not sure if im lkin forward to it...=/hahas.shud be fun?ahs.my poor eyes are closin but my work is left undone.hahas.takecare pples!off to do my toopid time mag.[with the ugly face guy as the cover page how can it not be stupid?!]haahs.
jesus loves the lil children, all da children of da world.red and
YELLOW black and white,dey are precious in his sight.jesus loves the lil children of da world!-smiles-
#LOU
Monday, March 29, 2004
tired out
hellos.im back.in sorta gd mood tadaes?yeps.so tired.last nite my mum forced me to watch
THE PASSION until i cuddent slp.dunno why?mayb was my concience?i keep on thinking god is biased against me.but i nva bothered to tink about what he went thru to forgive us from our sins.
i'm sorry for all my sins.i was wrong to go against you.den tis morn woke up late and my mum kept on hurrying me cos muikee was alredde waiting for me outside.hahas.paisehs.den reach sch ying qi was oredde waiting for me.den i put down my bag wenta wait at the gate for shermin to come budden she nva came.so went back to class saw amah.so 3 of us wenta 3j look for shermin.den shermin brot us to 4u to find weixin.den gaeme dat farnie look agains.den sae mus find replacement.den ask shermin den she sho nice she agreee to do for me.hahas.den amah started scolding me and yiling and xw and dey all oso lah.so i told shermin dat i wanna do.so now im still doing rites?waste all my time and effort.den shermin told weixin.den she smsed me and yingqi lyked freaked?hahas.i was kinda shocked too?den realised she ver nice lah.hahas.sho i take back saying she was toopid.hahas.sories.sho farnie lorhs.den everyone deserted me to go for props.dunno whie all my frens in red hse one???den i missed the stoopid bus.den ate ice cream for lunchies!(did i mention i ate dat and 2 pieces of tofu for dinner last nite?hahas.)so tired.anw i shud be doing work nows.byes pple.
#LOU
Saturday, March 27, 2004
dot
okays. so now dey dunt. dey even gave me a free apple pie. hahas.im dead lorh. i haven touched my hw. have been sleeping all day long!!!!!!!!!!-yawn- im still tired. ---piggy me.
#LOU
ah!!!
i've been cheated by macdonalds!hmph.they now owe me 1 large and 1 medium fries!
#LOU
Friday, March 26, 2004
a cry for help!
hais.todaes is wells i dunno whether its gd or bad yeahs?hahas.that weixin go and choose me for the wadeva sports day recording lorhs.kaos.i find the song stoopid.and its lyke im gonna be the ONLY sec 1 dere.and the rest are probably sec 4s. and i will be so lan next to dem.the sec 4s the voice damn good wan larhs.kaos.im going to find weixin and try my best to get myself out of this.no. i will go and find shermin first if she say ask weixin den i go and look for her. cos i noe that stare.but i will stare back ones. hahas.and my dear yingqi is going to peiwo.she just too nice liaos.ehs and that STUPID caipo went to force my group to do the chilit thing when she knew we weren't prepared.and she pianpian must choose my group!-slapslap-f her lahs.den i was so nervous cos she keep staring at me.kaos lorh.den during common test period grace and berniece(sec 3 choir) came to find me and told me weixin chose me to do recording! and its lyke wad e heck?!!! den berniece keep on insisting that i wear the stoopid dog tag.bleahx.den say must learn the song.which is relle stupid.and must go for recording during recess on tuesdays.i hope we get to eat if not i will have gastric one.=(and i called xw to ask sihui whether she is doing recording if she sees her and that xw wenta pass the fone to her.den she sound so different.den i ask hu's dat den she answered sihui.wah laos.so embarrassing.hahas.but i relle think i will be the only sec. 1 dere. no i will def be the only sec 1 dere.and i dunt even noe da song!!!-cries-and i relle can't sing properly when i dun have someone like singing w me. at least if got sec 2 can lahhs.but all sec 4 lorhs.kaos.
I VER SCARED!!!i dun wan.i wan yingqi to sing w me.den at least i can sing.but i just have a feeling that will all be sec 4s or maybe sec 3!!!and im so scared to sing in front of dem.=(help me someone!!!!im begging you.
-cries-
#LOU
Thursday, March 25, 2004
yawns
its rather late? not relle lahs.i just finished my chinese lit lorhs.so difficult to read the stupid thing.haben done my maths and english.cos i left my books in school!!!ahs.-sigh-so far tis is the first time my dad has let me stay up so late.hahas.i just drank a cup of milo dat was infested with ants but i washed the ants off and i wont be suprised if i just ate ants but wad to do? that cup of milo was made by my mum and its not smth i get everyday.but i was so in a rush to finish my work dat i forgot abt it and the ants beat me to it.=(but nvm lahhs.ants contain nutrition i think?dunno larhs.im feeling alone.betrayed.im taken for a substitute.we all know who we are.its just dat we don't wanna show dat we know.but its just too tiring.hais.i was fuming todaes.cos of sum bit*h in my class who thinks she's boss.u should noe hu u r.i wanted to slap her but i had to contain my anger.and it was so difficult.my eyes are closing.ive been slping quite late as in go to bed early but fall aslp late.-tired-but i dun wanna slp.i can't.my brother is still using his computer which is unfortunately in my room.and his music is disturbing to the ears.can break my ear drums.how to sleep?anyways my dad's coming out. if he catches me, im dead. byes
#LOU
Tuesday, March 23, 2004
eatandeatandeatsummore.
im feeling glutton nows.am in a good mood.achieved sumthing.ahahs.so happies.anws.had to learn the animal carnival in choirs todae.its so lame lorh we laffed till we died.over and over again.dolphins dun hav freezers.dolphins dun hav visas.dolphins dun hav mortages or trousers or shampoo!isn't it lame?hahas.haven do me time magazine.-bleahx-happie me!!!nth can spoil my dear mood.hahas.my bro's ex gal fren is here. she's verver nice.ahahs.lyke her.zeslene noes her=wanling.yups.yays.
happie belated b dae.
if u noe who im referring to...
#LOU
Friday, March 19, 2004
frm meis//amah
heyyo louie...
amah//meis over here..
hahax...i lyk to invade ppls blog...
hahax...
so far only noe two of my jies passwd...
nt gna gif it away larx...
haha...
crapp andd crapp and crapp...
hahax...
tts wad i lyk to do...
nowe dunno howta crapp redde...
luv ya fereva+++
-hugsandkisses
--amah
#LOU
Thursday, March 18, 2004
uhohs.
im so hungry.wanted to eat bread w butter and peanut butter but there was no bread. so now im eating it with biscuits.tastes ok lahs but not as nice. shities. i have tutuion at 7.30 and i haven touched my hw. dies. off to do wrk nows.
#LOU
Wednesday, March 17, 2004
rushrushrush
in the current society, everything is so
fast moving and it really allows
self-centeredness to get to our heads. we keep on wallowing in self pity that we forget that there are
many others in a
far worse situation than us.in
helping others we help ourselves, and we should always remember that wadever good
we give out completes the circle which eventually comes back to
us.
#LOU
Monday, March 15, 2004
woohoos.
yeah.wenta watch haunted mansion todaes.was quite scary lorhs.den zq and i were like squeezing each otha's hands but xw was not freaked at all by those grusome shitty things at all.oh shit her.hahas.xw was so nottie she told her mother she was gonna do project but scooted off to j8s.anws.met yz after that and shopped for a while and came to my hse.supposed to do clit but we ended up playing so much computer we forgot bout the work.ahhas.den we went to walk sniky and den came home and yz and i bathed her cos she was covered in sand but xw and zq went home liaos.so funn.den sniky kept on splashing water at us.ahhas.den i wenta bathe.den ate.den nows lorhs.ahhas.i barely touched my hp except tis morn lahs.communicating w xw.my sms is like chao limit lorhs.=$anws.my eye infection is acting up once again.gtg fer nows.take cares dearies!!!!!!
#LOU
Saturday, March 13, 2004
ihateyou
im angry at you
i will write all about it here
im not afraid that you will see
cos its my blog and its its bout me
how i feel bout the world
and thats including you dear girl
u try to take my best fren away from me
dun u think that you're too much
i guess u don't hurh
no wonder everyone hates u so so much
i tot that they were just bit too bit*hy
but now i know that u're little miss foxy
dun think dat im not aware
i know wad u're thinking of now and then
i've been thru it and it was kinda a draw
and now i have expierence
the chance of me winning u is even more
im advising u to give up now
or when its too late u'll regret so much
or maybe im just being too sensitive
bout dat dear old fren
i think im a pest to her
thats all i am
but cant u spare a thot for me
i just finished a tough battle
why must u just start it over again
but i think u'll find it alrite
since everyone will be supporting you
and i'll be alone once again
why cant we do this properly
we dun need such a battle
u stick to ur frens and ill stick to mine
i nva did anything to you
why the need for this
think about it
-it'll only make me hate u even more.
#LOU
itsjuzdere.
ahahas.am going to collect my new specs in bout haf an hours time?hahas.its blue and well a bit smaller i guess?well.ihaven tokked much bout thursday.guess it was just one of those depressing days not only for me.smth bad happened larhs.but its better not to say(i think).and no.its not bout me.and it was
ppr day for sum of us. and the worst thing is dat our
parents gotta see it
first. i dint do too well.in fact its relle ver
horrible i must sae?damn bad larhs. i got
b4 for english
b3 for chinese a2 for lit maths and visual arts 'mc' for geog and a1 for
design and tech god. im damn lan rite? god. -savemefromthisnothingivebecome-
#LOU
Friday, March 12, 2004
overthemoon
i woke up today
feeling not dat good
not looking forward
to going to school
i felt betrayed alone and frustrated
it just suddenly occured to me that i was a fool
i tried my best to hide my true feelings
i hope i kinda succeeded
people just seemed so very normal
i juz wondered how they could be so weird
but when i looked at the board
i suddenly juz felt so excited
it was there
the message of 'enlightenment'
i guess it tot me to always look
on the briter side of life=))
thankies lots thats if u eva read tis
i tink u should noe hu u r
a real counseller u r=))
and when i got scolded by my teecher
your message brightened my day
sorts of lahs
juz showing dat u care
(waits. i tinks it fer the dogs)
but nvms
im juz happy
dat u were dere.
lalaalaas.
#LOU
Thursday, March 11, 2004
juz shuddup
i woke up with a smile, went to school feeling excited and came back home feeling well, down. i was feeling sick since assembly. i dint do morning jog. and was feeling giddy and suffering from gastric for all the lessons b4 recess. but i dint show it i tot that if i dint care it would leave me alone. but it just had to go against me. like always.den when it was our turn to perform i was like not feeling well so i sai un wanna go and sing budden everyone say i muz go. so i 'zhuang zhe kai xin' go larhs.budden i noe when i not feeling well cannot sing properly ones larh. den elisa kept on saying its not cos i sick then feel sick is cos i nervous. budden its relle not lorhs. den as predicted, i dint sing too well during da performance? i mean like its not my fault dat i can't sing low. i was
made tis way. u can't change me. but everyone was blaming me. fine. so its my fault. everything is my fault. go ahead say all u want. im used to it anywaes.:( wadeva. and all of u hu are complaining bout me nows. juz shuddup ks. cos u un noe how i felt. i stopped singing so many times cos i was relle feeling like gonna faint. it so wad lorhs. when i sing nicely they all ask me wad= eh sing solo lahs. sing tis lahs sing dat lahs. then when i sing badly its totally my fault. fine. go on blaming me. i dunt care.
#LOU
Wednesday, March 10, 2004
raining...AGAIN
hellos... its a
dreary day todaes. rainrainrain. lucky i came home earlier!!! if not i'd be even sicker den i am now... but im
ver happy!!! dunno whys. hahas. xw said dat all i write is
sad thinggys so i shall write
happy thinggys todae!hahas. the bus driver was relle nice todae. he stopped the nus juz after he start it so that an old man could board. isn't dat relle nice? but there was smth rong w the bus todaes. kept on making tis funny sound. -screech!- oh wells.maths test was quite a
flop relle. cos i forgot wad
rational and irrational numbers were. ahahas.so i prob got the whole first page wrong? but its okays larhs. im still ver happy. dunno y. juz dat i would wish
sum pple would stop bothering me.(yes
miss fullstop".", im tokking bout u) but i wun let dem or her affect me. so wad if pple say im a
betrayer? i dun care.seriously.
i DONT. and why dont some pple juz say if they are unhappy with u
going near their frens? juz shoot gal. i wunt hate you or anthing. i'll juz
get angry. but im always angry so i get over it sooner
or later.oh wait. isn't dat
sad? nonono. out u go.hahas. tml is muzikalthon and dere's oso choir. have to help my mum carry food to my auntie's stall tml morns. yahas. i dunt mind larhs. its shun lu anywae. ahas. anw i have to go and study now. den
camelia will owe me another iceecream. no larhs. juz joking. btw thanks for waking me up tis morning=) thankies so muchhies!!! hahas. hope our class item is not a
flop. it should be
sucessful after all de hard work we put in. okay larhs. not ver hard work. juz giving up our recesses? and making sum pple
smuggle food outa the canteen? hahas. if there happens to be any sn prefect here= we ver sorries lahs. take it as we did it fer the school pianos? hahas. no lahs. verver sorries k! ahahas.anw. relle gotta runs. :)
-wish us luck!-
#LOU
Tuesday, March 09, 2004
happy but scared
hehs.had choirs todae. dey saed we improved lots. hahas. hope we are juz as gd when miss lim cums. hahas. got like 30/40 for my physics. tml is maths i'll prob like fail it?-dies-unlike my dear xw. do so well. hahas.todae class was chaotic cos we were not happy about the change in places. so alot of pple
complained, dats of cos including me. i was so
unhappy with my seat. tml gonna complain to dat
lao kokkok.ahas. i wun sae why im happy or why im scared. juz in case
sumone sees it.hahas. and den we did tis cute cheer in choir tadaes. bu ti dint shout cos my sore throat is still dere.
it goes:
CHOIR dynamite, dun mess with dynamite.
*clapclap*
CHOIR dynamite, dun mess with dynamite.
*clapclap*
and we juz repeat and repeat until cheryl lee stops playing the piano.... so farnies. hahas.anw gtg nows. study fer maths b4 i fail. hahas.meanwhile take care every one!!!
#LOU
Monday, March 08, 2004
freaked
hahas. we had medical checkup todays. the stupid nurse made me take off my pe shirt so bian tai!!! den they say dat my backbone abit crooked... hahas. like i care? ohwells. so scary! last time when mr phee took my weight i was like 36.5(i noe ver light lah. but dun freak) den today i took is 35 only lorh!!!! wtf... i eat so much still
underwieght!!! WANT ME TO DIE ARHS?and mass pe was in da hall tadae? ok larhs. den during recess went for the muzikalthon practice thinggy. i relle hope i dun need to sing solo. eeps. but i dun mind if its a
nice song.hahas. have alumni choir tis fridaes. dunt noe whether im looking forward to it. after wad happened last friday. ehs. and its like the monitors put me and jasmine
in charge but i dun even noe how to sing? hahas. so embarrassing. but so many pple weren't dere. maybe cos i turned up? hahas. yesh.... and its so sad.... no one realised i cut my hair.... its quite an obvious change wad!!! but i lyke my hair now.... so thin!!! ahs. hahas.oh yesh.... im growing roses!!! ya noe dat!!! so cool!!! wahas. anw, more bdaes are cumin up. ahas. so cool!!! lurve bdaes!! so fun! hahs.and im relle starting to get pissed w sum pple in mie dear class. i wun name dem to prevent embarrassment but i mite soon. ahas.anw. gtg nows. sucky tution calls. haiz.... save me....
#LOU
Sunday, March 07, 2004
-broke-
ahas. i realize that my dear wishlist is getting longer and longer as i go broker and broker. anyone wants to sponsor me?hehes.so all i can do now is like??? slack? i dunno why dun u tell me?
#LOU
ahhasssss.....
My inner child is sixteen years old!
Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.
How Old is Your Inner Child?
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okay... so im 16? i guess not. i feel like im juz a spoilt young girl of letssae 10? ahas. maybe.... but i guess u should noe betta? xiao wei!!! im like 10 yrs older than u??hehehs
#LOU
Wednesday, March 03, 2004
Are you easily stressed?
heys. its juz so great.juz when i tot the world could be a better when i have my frens around me. it seems dat all my sec school 'frens' are against me.(exept fer zq and yanzhen) but itslike im relle dissapointed in xw lorhs. i nva expected tis betrayal. i guess i could see it coming. dats why i did so much fer her while i could. everyone thinks im fierce. ok so i admit i can be but when it comes to frens most of the time i try to do my best. why can't things juz be brighter for me once? maybe its juz problematic me. juz for ur info xiao wei. doesn't mean i nva sae im going thru it means im not. hu's mother doesn't go on and on and on about school? hu isn't made to do chores? even i having a maid have to do them. and how bad it feels when u have a maid but u are doing her chores while she is sittingdere watching tv? you dun noe. you will nva understand me lorhs. i guess im just wasting my time. maybe its relle impossible between us. you can go on w yan bing and yiling. i dun care. even if i did, i can't stop u. but no matter wad. i want u to know dat i will always miss the time we were
best of frens.im fine alone. i dun need anyone to live. i can live on even if the sky falls and im the only one alive. and when i have achievements.(whihc i like won't) i can celebrate myself. i dun need you or anyone. at least i still have my primary school frens. but sumtimes some of dem oso forget us or maybe juz me. at least i noe dere are(or is it were now?) at least some pple hu care about my existance. at least i hope they do???
anws, i was so shocked when juz now i was wokking home then lirong(vice head prefect and choir motivator) juz started tokking to me. i always tot she was like ver fierce. but she's act. so frenly lorhs. most of dem are larhs. but dunno whether its faking? but relle nva knew she was like so easy to toks to? whoas. okay. i guess u relle can't judge a book by its cover? but im still in a bitchy moods. im too pissed to continue writing.
im scared of losin
im scared of losin YOU
#LOU